Hmmmm...

The last blog just got deleted, don't know why..didn't have the energy to re-write, so a lil breather...but the whirring of thoughts continues...hmmmmm....

Life is so uncertain (i suspect for everyone ) but moreso for one-self..right now...there are so many questions looming..what next ??? Job ?? Finances ?? Lil'fella's education (priority !!)..in fact the only reason I seem to be living life..seems to be for the kid (oh! theres plenty of love around..thats not it !) but you know..a sort of focus to life..for some its the quest of money..(for me it used to be education..more n more n more !! ..ahhh...those dreams of writing..of the Ph.D..sigh..dreams indeed !)..but now the purpose of life, seems to be just to see him happy ! And..thats exactly why I don't give up on u-know-whos thoughts, it adds to life..even if its pain..it adds colour..something to wallow in..something you can curl up on the sofa and dream about..no other dreams left ! Oh-oh no whining there..i have it pretty good actually..am grateful..to GOD..am always aware..always..that things could be worse...

Just one look around the world..at empty lives..at struggles..at wars..at famines..at deaths..at losses..at hunger..oh-yes considering..am alright.